#17 - Melissa Plett Reboot!!

Why hello there!
How are YOU doing?  It's been quite some time since I've spoken to you.  I hope you're living your life to the fullest and just down right GIVEN'R!

My life in Quebec has been, if I'm honest... pretty great!
I bought a condo that we've done some fantastic renovations on, I've made a bunch of great friends in which I've formed the STIFF COMPETITION softball team with, and I've begun to learn french... sort of.

That's right... softball... me..?!

But yes, there have been frustrations... MANY frustrations.  Missing my family has been by far the hardest and the language has caused a HUGE barrier in any career path I like to pretend I'm on. Various things have lead me to COMPLAIN the year away!  But as I sit here in a rather chilly Starbucks (it's the end of October why they heck is the heat not on?!), and I look ahead to the next couple of months, I realize I'm a selfish little whiner that should get her act together!

The best way I can describe how I had been feeling?  Like my body was walking around but my spirit was slipping away more and more.  Ask any of my friends and they say I was still myself... but let's just chalk that up to my awesome acting skills??  I've always prided myself in being the girl that ALWAYS "figures it out".  Even though I dramatically blow things out of proportion, I know inside every-thing's actually fine.  Not gonna lie... this past year I actually got to a point where I really didn't know how it was going to work out and that no,  not everything WAS going to be ok.

Then my true breaking day came and I found myself screaming into my hands, calling out "What?!  What am I doing wrong and what do you want me to do?!!".  Slowly little situations started happening that piece by piece started to pull me back into my body... back to being Melissa Plett.

The BIGGEST one was this fall as my family was hit HARD with the news of my Mom being diagnosed with a stage 4 brain tumor.  For those of you that know my Mom... no one could have seen this coming for that healthy stubborn little red head! But it did. (As I'm sure it's a shock to all cancer victims)  Thankfully they removed the tumor and she is currently in full on chemo and radiation mode.  The PLUS side?  My Mom's a fighter and she's decided to giver! This is a true testament to people out there as to what "I AM STRONG" really means!  A big ass kicker for me for sure...

3 days after her surgery!  AWESOME!

The next came when my good ol' fiddle player gave me a pep talk. I sat there listening to him, over the beer we were having, between the ceremony and reception of a wedding in which I was a Maid of Honor at.

 

But as we sat there, catching up from almost a year of not playing together, he looked at me and said blankly:
"What's your problem?"
Ummm...
"Anybody that has seen you on ANY stage knows that's where you belong!  Just because we don't live in the same province does not mean we can't play.  Many bands do it!  So why aren't you playing?"

Sounds simple enough hey?
But when you've been letting yourself slip away for the past year in a state of resentment, anger, and lack of motivation this is EXACTLY what you need to hear!
What the heck IS my problem?!

Then, as I left Manitoba and headed back to Quebec, music started to come to mind again... I picked up my guitar, that had been sitting quiet for a better part of the year, and started to play.

And now I'm here... deep in thought as my beautiful boyfriend waits patiently for me... having quite my 4th Quebec job this year, putting my house BACK on the market and planning my future steps.... I know it's all uncertain but it's also the beginning of a Melissa Plett Reboot and it's going to be GREAT!